Monday, October 12, 2009

Ambushed

Have you ever had a dream of something you wanted to accomplish, a desire to achieve, a passion to make a difference ? In your mind you can picture it all, ideas abundantly overflowing, there's an excitement in your belly and the anticipation of venturing into unknown territory is exhilorating. You decide to share your dream, verbalising your vision and plans make it all the more real, you have taken the leap from dreamtime into reality, it's out there, made known. Something in the atmosphere changes, butterflys of excitement turn to feelings of nausea, great ideas suddenly seem unattainable and exhiloration morphs into fear and doubt.
" I can't achieve that......I don't have the capabilities......the talent........the resources......I can't......I can't !
" I " suddenly becomes a big issue, paralysis sets in and the enemy successfully ambushes your dreams and purpose.
Having experienced all of these emotions after penning my first ever piece to be seen by eyes other than my own, overwhelmed with self doubt, I promptly screwed it up and threw it in the bin.
Passions and dreams are given to us by God, He knows the desires of our heart. Our ideas don't have to be huge and complicated in order to make a difference, it may be as simple as.....A prompting to phone a friend- who's probably in need of a chat.......Inviting your neighbour over for coffee- she may be lonely hoping for company.......Talking to the new person at church and making them feel welcome or just speaking out that word of encouragement that comes to mind. God promises when we trust Him and step outside of our box that He will uphold us with His victorious right hand.......He both preceeds and follows us........that our weaknesses become His strength. Our confidence dosen't come from " I " it comes from Him.
 " I can do all things through CHRIST who strengthens me " Philippians 4:13
Let's take hold of these promises beautiful Sistas, step out, follow our dreams, make that difference and allow God to " accomplish infinitely more than we could ever dare to ask or imagine " Ephesians 3:20
  I wrote this two and a half years ago, I did retrieve the letter from the bin and began to write but somewhere along the way I opened the door to fear and doubt walking straight back into the the enemies ambush....again. I have wasted so much time and energy wandering around in the land of " I " but He loves me too much to leave me there. I have a sore butt, because lately everwhere I turn He's giving me a boot back in the right direction. I'll be honest that direction is scary, some big decisions that will require some serious stretching and trusting are on the horizon, however I plan to travel with an expert guide, He has an eye for the ambush ahead. He has not given me a spirit of fear, but of love, power and a sound mind. With each challenge that comes my way, He keeps bringing to mind.....

Your destiny lies at the end of your obedience.
Lxx